New York

0Matt • 4th Jan 2009 • Africa

I leave tomorrow morning for New York to have a meeting with Cause Investments and Acirfa.

We’ll be discussing a lot of plans for Acirfa including my possible role with them, living and working somewhere in Africa.

With the possibility of my move ever-nearing, I am beginning to feel the doubt that is sure to grow as I pursue what God has for me. I’m also feeling overwhelmed by nothing in particular… something that I don’t experience very often.

The love and support that I have here at home is unbelievably real and meaningful to me right now and I believe that God is preparing me for something worthy of that love and support. It’s hard to say what will or will not happen at our meetings on Monday and Tuesday in New York, but I know that God will be in all of it. I don’t think that God is going to control everything that happens, including whether or not I spend a year or two of my life in Africa… but I do believe that God is in control and that there is nothing I can do to escape God’s reach.

It’s just scary to know that life continues on at home. It won’t be easy for Heather, and I would be lying if I said that this isn’t one of the worst things about potentially going. I’m so thankful, though, that I’m finally going to find out what’s what this week and if I’m going or not.

This just might be your last chance, Joe.